Cravings are down,
waaaay down.
Yesterday was the worst day. I felt angry and so sad about
not being able to eat a whole box of fresh-baked chocolate chip cookies that I
honestly felt like I could cry…but I didn’t. But I was cranky, yeah.
I had a late therapy appointment
last night and on my way home I decided to stop at Big & Nasty to see if I
could find a book I want on clearance. It’s been out for a while and book III
is due out in June, so it should have been on a clearance table…but it’s a small
store, so they didn’t have it. (Stephen King’s Finder’s Keepers, the second book in the Bill Hodges trilogy, book
I being Mr. Mercedes.) I actually
have the Kindle version reserved from the library, and I’m next in line to get
it, but I want to read it NOW. LOL
So I got a cup of coffee at the
Schnuttbucks in the back of the store, gazing longingly at the bakery case
items, and then wandered around hoping to find my book. Then I started getting
hungry and I started thinking about foo. I decided I should leave otherwise
that bakery case was going to be calling me like a siren.
I got in the car and started
thinking about dinner. I had stuff at home I could eat, but I was really hungry. I have these moments
where I feel as if I don’t eat something, I may eat the first thing I get my
hands on. Not a good place to be away from home.
I started running through my
litany of food places I could go to for a “snack” on my way home: Del Taco for a cheese quesadilla or a beef
burrito; Panera for a chicken salad; In ‘N Out for a bunless burger…then
thought about the money; I’ve already overspent for the month, so I need to
watch every penny. Just go home Jules,
and eat the food you already purchased.” So I did.
Earlier in the day I was craving
something sweet, so I rifled through the pantry and found some sesame cashews I’d
gotten at Trader Joe’s a while back. I ate a handful of them. Very satisfying.
As I was snuggled in bed last
night with the cats, reading on my Kindle, the carb cravings hit. I started
mentally inventorying all the food in the house. There was nothing I wanted.
Well, there was one thing, but it meant getting the toaster out etc., and I
wasn’t up for that (Eggos. Yeah. I bought them, and ate a few, last week.) So I
decided to just go to sleep and see how I felt in the morning.
This morning? Starving. I ate two
yogurts back-to-back. And I’m thinking about the next course already. LOL I’m
craving protein so I know my body is kicking into weight loss mode. And this
morning? Down two pounds from yesterday, and down eight pounds from the 1st.
Yay.
So I feel good about today. I’m
not craving carbs, like…obsessing about them. Would I like some cookies? Sure,
who wouldn’t. But not today. Not. Today.
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